Why do women become fixated to the idea of a perfect face? I bought (for the first time) foundation and I've been trying to put it on so it looks as natural as possible. When I was younger, I used to have perfect skin which was rarely blemished or fouled by ugly pimples. But lately, from scares of those few pimples and more acne than usual I bought some concealer and foundation. I just feel like I've sold out out though to the beauty industry. Everyone has perfect lips, and face, and cheeks, and eyes; at least I do now....But why do I feel even more terrible and ugly than before? It was a mistake to buy this stuff. Sure its a nice idea, but if I'm not me than who am I?
I took the make up off. So what if I have undeniably appalling dark undereye circles and rather colorless skin. I also think that odds are against me. I gotta keep on emailing professors for research. Out of the plenty that I've contacted, I just want one to give me a chance. If only, if only.
