The world is a beautiful, colorful place.
Don't live in monotones,
experiment, chase down rainbows,
free yourself.
Maybe you will start believing that
there's more to you than what meets the eyes.


~Happy Fall! The photo was taken by my friend David W.  Today I took a dive into the realm of uncertainty and cut my hair super short for the first time in a very, very, very long time.  I feel free of the long weight of the years past and nostalgic for those old memories.  Perhaps one day I will greet them with open arms instead of regret.

xoxo The Blogger

photo credits: Jane Kim

Which would you rather: going back in time to change the past
or predicting the future?

Sometimes I wish that I could scream out to the world
Tell them what's really on my mind.
Ask them what it is that makes us who we are;
but alas things don't work that way.
And we're left to deal with the broken imaginations
and rigid understandings we have
of our surroundings.

The photo was taken by someone else but I forgot who, but its not my picture just so y'all know!

I just had the oddest and a semi-insulting (and by that I mean I'm not sure if I was insulted or if it was my imagination) encounter with an acquaintance at my school.  Basically I said that walking to the food court always made me crave chicken curry and she said "You eat meat?" to which I replied "I eat chicken sometimes." This brought on this statement, and I quote "You should be careful who you mention meat to. Some people get very angry."

I'm sure that she meant that I needed to hide the fact that I eat meat because I am a Hindu and I eat chicken.  Unfortunately there are some Hindus who believe that if you eat any amount of meat you are a bad person and therefore deserve discrimination and judgment. Don't get me wrong, I'm an extremely religious, especially for a girl who tends to avoid Indian culture altogether.  But I also believe that those stupid superstitions that we follow is all because bad people are worried they might be punished later for their deeds and want to use superstitions to make themselves feel better.

I can't believe even now, after trying so hard to separate my life from the highly judgmental folk who make up  my cultural community I still got some whiplash.  I suppose it doesn't matter.  If you're a good person, no amount of waking up to the East, sitting a certain way during pujas, eating certain food is going to make God appreciate you less.  And NO amount of waking up to the East, sitting a certain way during pujas, eating certain food is going to make a horrible person better.  Time to go off to class and learn and dwell on the topic of good versus evil some more.  Of course right now the only evil in my life is procrastination while trying to study for my test on Wednesday. 

I write poetry as though I'm running-
I get tired easily and feel as though I need to reinvent myself,
I live life as though there
aren't those who will bring me down,
and I pretend that I am not affected
by the sticks and stones of people's speeches
and actions.

xoxo The Blogger